How the Light Gets In, Part 1

How the Light Gets In, Part 1


As we wrap up the discussion on the eve of publication of the tenth book, The Long Way Home, it’s obvious how much Louise Penny and her creations are admired. Robin Agnew, co-owner of Aunt Agatha’s Bookstore, and discussion leader here for The Cruelest Month, was recently quoted in the Ann Arbor Observer. “In my twenty-one years of selling books, I’ve never encountered the passion that people feel for Penny.”

In this forum, readers, librarians, editors, booksellers and publicists have discussed Louise Penny’s books. We’ve talked about Penny herself, how we met her, and how we’ve all grown to see her as a friend. We’ve discussed the settings, whether Three Pines, Montréal, Québec or a monastery. We’ve grown to love her characters; Armand Gamache, Jean-Guy Beauvoir, Reine-Marie, Clara, Ruth, Myrna, Gabri, Olivier, even a duck. And perhaps we’ve all discovered it’s hard to separate Louise Penny, the author and friend, from Three Pines, a place of comfort, where Gamache and his friends return time and again. Do we share a passion for Louise Penny because of who she is, or because of who she is and the gift of the world she has given us?

In How the Light Gets In, Armand Gamache acknowledges that Three Pines is not Eden. “Three Pines, he knew, was not immune to dreadful loss. To sorrow and pain. What Three Pines had wasn’t immunity but a rare ability to heal. And that’s what they offered him.”

Before we can heal, we must suffer. Louise Penny’s first nine books are a finished circle in themselves. We’ve gone from an introduction to Three Pines and Gamache, meeting them both in Still Life. We’ve watched him struggle with past history in the Sûreté du Québec, watched the situation there grow worse, and, now, in How the Light Gets In, we see the culmination of the epic battle between forces, the battle between good and evil. And, of course, it culminates in Three Pines.

One of the underlying story cycles of this series is finished. Gamache and Three Pines will go on, both somewhat changed from their experiences. I see the series as a Venn diagram. There is overlap. Gamache, Three Pines, many of the characters. We still need to find out what happens to Peter and Clara. But the first nine books will always be “Before the events of How the Light Gets In,” while the next books will be, “After the events of How the Light Gets In.”

Thank you for reading with us, discussing Louise Penny’s amazing series. It’s been an honor and privilege to participate in these discussions.

Recap (Chapters 1-22)

The opening chapter introduces a woman who remains a mystery in the first half of the book. Audrey Villeneuve’s story will come to light in the second half. Here, we only see her as a terrified driver viewing the cracks in the Ville-Marie Tunnel. When Gamache questions later, he learns she was a possible suicide victim and a clerk in the roads division of the Ministry of Transport. Audrey Villeneuve’s storyline is kept for the second half of the book.

The second storyline is introduced in chapter two. Constance PIneault, a friend of Myrna’s, leaves the village of Three Pines, with promises to return for Christmas. She left with a statement about playing hockey as a child, seeing it as revealing a secret. Her failure to appear causes Myrna, owner of the bookstore, to contact Gamache.

In chapter three, we learn that Chief Inspector Armand Gamache’s homicide division is under the gun. Chief Inspector Francoeur has torn it apart. The old guard, beginning with Jean-Guy Beauvoir, once Gamache’s protégé, has been transferred out, leaving Isabelle Lacoste and a group of rabble who have been transferred in. The most successful homicide team in the nation has been gutted, and Jean-Guy is emotionally destroyed, addicted to pills. Instead of a crack team, Gamache has a squad whose members are surprised to learn that “he actually believed it. Believed the Sûreté du Québec was a great and effective police force. A breakwater between the citizens and those who would do them harm.” We see that only Lacoste remains loyal to Gamache, the only one within the division who still respects him.

The three storylines slowly come together as Gamache responds to Myrna’s request. He and Lacoste leave for Three Pines. Along the way, they observe a body, later learned to be Audrey Villeneuve’s, being retrieved from the waters of the St. Lawrence.

When Constance Pineault did not show up in Three Pines, Myrna was worried about the seventy-seven-year-old woman. It’s only then that she reveals Constance’s true identity. She was one of the famous Ouellet Quintuplets, once the most famous children in Canada, born to a simple farmer and his wife. When Gamache and Lacoste find Constance murdered in her home in Montréal, it leads to a fascinating story about the Quints. It also leads to a murder investigation, and Gamache agrees to handle it for his counterpart in the Montréal homicide division.

The timing for a murder investigation is perfect, as it provides an opportunity for Gamache to smuggle two friends into Three Pines. Thérèse Brunel, a Superintendent in the Sûreté, and her husband, Jérôme, a retired doctor turned cyber junkie, are helping Gamache dig for answers as to what’s truly going on in the police force. But Jérôme’s computer searches have caught unwanted attention, and it’s dangerous for everyone involved. Three Pines makes the perfect refuge. Or does it? They are safe, but also stuck.

A murder investigation involving a woman whose childhood was so celebrated that she doesn’t seem real. A build-up of tension as Gamache and his few allies dig for dangerous information. A seemingly unrelated death. A name from the past – Arnot. And, the first half of How the Light Gets In ends with Superintendent Francoeur and Inspector Tessier discussing the plot against Gamache, and their use of Jean-Guy Beauvoir. As they send him on raids, ply him with pills, play on his addiction, they see him as the unexploded bomb that could destroy Gamache.

Favorite Quote

I was so torn. Matthew 10:36 is a recurring quote and theme in the series. “And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household.” It’s so important in this series, and this particular book.

But this time, I picked a more positive one. It’s Gamache, reflecting on the dog, Henri. “But he realized Henri already knew all he’d ever need. He knew he was loved. And he knew how to love.”

Discussion Questions

1. What did you know about the Dionne Quintuplets, the model for the Ouellets?

2. Henri, Ruth, and Rosa often serve to alleviate the tension in the book, adding a little humor. I like comments such as “Henri, while a handsome dog, would never get into Harvard.” Do you have a favorite humorous scene or moment in this first half of the book?

3. In describing Clara and housework, Penny says, “Clara Morrow was not someone who liked housework. What she liked was magic. Water into foam. Dirty dishes into clean. A blank canvas into a work of art. It wasn’t change she liked so much as metamorphosis.” How do you see this statement relate to Three Pines and the people who end up there?

4. What do you think Gamache meant when he said, “He wondered in a moment that startled him, whether that’s what this little village was. The end of the road? And like most ends, not an end at all.”

5. Over and over in the first half of the book, Penny emphasizes safety versus freedom, with Gamache and the Brunels in Three Pines, the Quints, the Crees. “They were safe, but also stuck, like the Quints. Made safe, given everything they wanted, except freedom.” How do you see safety versus freedom?

6. Let’s talk about celebrity. Myrna looks at the Quints and says she wouldn’t wish celebrity on anyone. How do people suffer because of their celebrity?

7. The shattered relationship between Jean-Guy Beauvoir and Annie Gamache is illustrated in the sad scene in which they sit in cars outside each other’s homes. In Jean-Guy’s case, “Now he was hungry. Starving. And he stank. The whole car reeked. He could feel his clammy undershirt sticking to him. Molding itself there, like a second skin.” At this point in the book, how do you feel about Jean-Guy Beauvoir?

8. Ruth’s poem, “Alas,” can refer to so many people, although we now know she wrote it about Virginia Ouellet. Who do you think of in the book when you read “Who hurt you once/so far beyond repair/that you would greet each overture/with curling lip?”

Discussion on “How the Light Gets In, Part 1”

Whose house was Gamache using as their headquarters in 3 pines? It seemed he had liked the owner. Was she in another book?

The Gamache-Beauvoir bond: hurt beyond repair?

I loved this book so much, and for many reasons. After reading the precursor, The Beautiful Mystery, I was anxious to find out what happened to Beauvoir but much more than that, what was going to become of the Gamache-Beauvoir bond. I thought: How are they ever going to fix that, after what Beauvoir did?

Bonds like the one Gamache and Beauvoir have are few, and always the most moving of human relationships. Because their foundation is true love, unmarred by sexual drive or by genetic bondage, only true human affection. I was so much into these characters after TBM that I started searching in the previous books, the passage where Louise Penny depicts a little of Jean-Guy’s childhood and how he was treated by his father. I think it is in the 2nd or 3rd novel. And I also remember a time when Gamache had to tell JG to stop the car because he felt they needed a serious talk about some personal insecurity of Jean-Guy’s. After nine novels I know that Penny plants seeds of past stories connected to the characters that, at first, just left me hungry for more, but whose details now I know will be revealed in a future book. What I recall reading previously is that Jean-Guy was hurt badly in childhood by his father. Jean-Guy was denied by his father what he needed so desperately: his father’s guidance, approval and affection.

We read in How The Light Gets In that the worst possible hurt is to be betrayed by someone who had worked long to earn your trust. This is the hurt that Jean-Guy is feeling toward Gamache, though certainly not through any fault of Gamache’s. Jean-Guy was insecure from the start, in part due to his nature (addictive) but mostly because he was abandoned by his own father. Gamache worked incessantly to earn Jean-Guy’s trust, but Jean-Guy’s trust in Gamache was always fragile, always had cracks, because of JG’s past. That helped the Francoeur team to damage their relationship.

I loved when in the end I connected the title of the book (a line of Leonard Cohen’s poetry) to the whole story through the message of love that Gamache tells Jean-Guy, when the latter is pushing Gamache’s own gun into his gut in Beauvoir’s office. At first JG reacts to the I Love You line with a forceful blow to Gamache’s face, indicating that that is exactly what makes him hate Gamache now, that Gamache had played that game before, but Jean-Guy no longer fell for it, it was all lies. The lies at the core of his pain now. But in a later scene, with a little help from Ruth and through Rosa, the Light gets in to Beauvoir’s heart, and then he sees clearly. Beauvoir was never suicidal else he would already and easily have killed himself with the drugs. Instead, he had hope. That is why it was important to him to show Gamache how he felt, so Gamache would react and might find a way to heal his hurt.

I always expected that Jean-Guy would end up saving the day with his skills as a shooter (his highly accurate shooting skills are mentioned once in a previous novel) but I didn’t know exactly how. So the nearly last scene is absolutely beautiful and wonderful and encompasses so much of what Love is and what it can do. I think this book will be the best Gamache of all.
Bravo, Louise Penny. More! more!

I’m looking forward to being able to discuss the book as a whole starting tomorrow. In the first half, we have to be so careful not to give anything away to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t finished it, but in the second week we can assume everyone has finished reading the book. I’m sure we will have plenty to say about this book this week.

I love that Louise finds humor in all sorts of small things! For example, this is a description of a walk that Gamache and Jerome Brunel take upon first arriving in Three Pines on a very cold night:

“They were well insulated against it. A tall man and a small, round man. They looked like a broken exclamation mark.” (page 110)

I also really like the way that Louise varies the length of her sentences, which can create drama or, in this case, humor.

There is also the wonderful scene in which Clara, Ruth, Myrna, Gabri, Gamache, and Gilles are discussing the effects of secrets (pages 182 – 183). I won’t quote all of it because it’s long, but it begins when Ruth says that secrets turn the secret-keeper into an ancient mariner:

” ‘What’s that supposed to mean?’ Gilles broke into the silence. ‘An old sailor and a tuna?’ ”
‘That’s albacore,’ said Olivier.
‘Oh, for chrissake,’ snapped Ruth, and flicked her hand so that the flame went out. ‘One day I’ll be dead and what’ll you do for cultural conversation, you stupid shits?’
“‘Wait a minute,’ Gabri said. ‘I remember now. Didn’t the ancient mariner and Ellen de Generes save Nemo from a fish tank in Australia?’
‘I think that was The Little Mermaid,’ said Clara.”

Then, with Louise’s skill at transition, the conversation turns quite serious at the end: ” Oh, shut up,’ snapped Ruth. ‘The Ancient Mariner brought the curse on himself and them. It was his fault, and he had to admit it, or carry it the rest of his life. Got it?’ “

I love all the wonderful literary allusions in Louise’s books. They add a lot to the depth of her stories. This was a very funny conversation about The Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner. Armand got the reference right away, which seemed to impress Ruth.

Yes, I did laugh out loud a few times. But the funniest moment has to be the box of condoms scene at the Dépanneur (Québec term for what Penny calls a “convenience store”). 🙂

In re the Quints. I was born in 1940, and remember seeing some pictures occasionally in life. But I was never much interested, and I think my younger siblings, the Boomers, in the U. S. Never cared much. They are old, old history here, and one of the things that disappointed me in this book the first time through was the amount of time spent on the book’s quints. I wasn’t interested, and what I wanted was a book devoted to the battle for the soul of the Surete. Too much of that was hidden from the reader while time was wasted, imho, with the quints mystery. Maybe this time through, since I know the upshot, I can find more to interest me in the story, since I don’ recall the identity of the murderer.

Being from the US, I had never heard of the quints, my mother, however, had, and coming from her background of poverty wished, at one time or another, to be a quint because of the “face” that was put on their life. I think part the purpose of including that story line was there needed to be a clear definition of someone who had achieved the pinnacle of fame and the results of it on the person and those around them. This reflects on the Gamache and Jean Guy plot line, Jean Guy feels in the shadow of Gamache’s success and feels the need for valuation from Gamache until it begins to corrupt JG emotionally and then physically. Just a thought.

I think we also need some relief from the pure evil that emanates in the Jean-Guy/Francoeur story-line. If the whole book was that, without some relenting of the tension, we’d be basket-cases by the end!

I agree Julie. The whole book can’t be on one tense plane. On one level, life goes on, Armand has to juggle his normal day with everything else. It also has to seem normal to everyone or the game is up.

I do think the story lines have intertwined themes. The freedom-safety issue being one. The deception of appearances is another, things aren’t what they appear with the Quints, one face to the world so to speak. Similarly with Francouer and the Surete as a whole.

Destruction and collapse versus strength and rebuilding, is another theme relating to people, power, things….I am being vague as we are in the first half of the novel.

Julia, I think Jean-Guy was frustrated at times in his relationship with Gamache because he felt ready to be more of an equal partner than a subordinate. So they did have some heavy arguments early on. For instance, Beauvoir wanted to be told the full story about the Arnot case. However, the real trouble came after he was so badly injured in the factory raid. He was in terrible pain for months afterwards, and to ease it he was prescribed Oxygen-Contin and Percocet. These are extremely dangerous drugs with a strong tendency to lead to addiction. I don’t think anyone has developed a test to find out if a person might develop an addiction if treated with them, but that would certainly be a vital piece of research! Then later, Francoeur tells him there’s nothing wrong with him – he’s not addicted. With Francoeur and Tessier working on his mind and continually supplying him with the drugs, he keeps going farther and farther down.

Sorry, I missed a mistake. This tablet keeps “correcting” what I write! I wrote Oxy-Contin, but it didn’t’t come out right.

I think this is exactly right, Sylvia. I know that as recently as 15 years ago, Dr’s didn’t think Oxy-Contin was addictive, and boy, were they wrong! I know from own experiences with it, it’s so effective at soothing pain that you have a tendency to take it almost before you need it, because if you have really bad pain, it helps a lot. Then there’s that sense of relief, as it floods through your body. You have to be so careful, because I think that even psychologically, it’s addictive. Luckily, now, they DO know, and prescriptions are routinely written for really just a few pills at a time, and a Dr. has to okay any refills. I don’t think they’d hesitate to cut you off.

1. No
2. “Henri chose, if such a thing is a choice, to hand out another great compliment at that moment. Lacoste brought her hand to her face , in an involuntary survival instinct.” I have a LARGE dog that loves nothing more than creating a whiff of bad air and walking off, I swear he laughs as he does, so when I read this I laughed aloud. It also reminded me of the middle schoolers I teach whom I need to remind that everybody farts.
3. The people whom we have met in Three Pines have all changed and evolved. It’s as if Three Pines is their chrysalis and they have to go through their struggles to break out with strength and beauty of character. This also leads into number 4.
4. Three Pines isn’t the end of anyone’s road who has a seeking heart. It has become, or has always been, a place of sanctuary and acceptance that allows for growth and, especially, forgiveness, of self and others.
5. One cannot be free if one is in fear of his/her safety, whether from inner or outer forces, and so many are willing to give up much in the name of safety. However, are we then safe from those who would protect us? It is a double edged sword.
6. Ahhh, celebrity. I began thinking about the “Kate Plus 8” kids, particularly the mom who was thrust into the limelight and has struggled to stay there. Then there is Alec Baldwin, whose fortune depends on the public watching him in whatever he happens to be cast in, and he battles with the press over his privacy all the time! I will take the normalcy of everyday life, thank you.
7. My heart breaks for Jean Guy as he has to lose his world to regain a stronger, clearer grasp on what is real to him.
8. “Alas” , makes me think of Myrna, Clara, Peter, Jean Guy, Olivier, Gabri…all the inhabitants of Three Pines who sought sanctuary and healing there. I know Jean Guy and Gamache aren’t residents, but they are as broken and in need of healing as anybody who has settled in TP. Must be something in the water.

Your remark about your dog reminded me of when I had four small dogs. One would “scent the air”, and they would all turn and look at each other. Including the guilty one.

I found the following quote in a National Post article where Louise discusses her own battle with alcoholism talking about book 7, A Trick of the Light.

Penny also hopes the book – and her life – show that although addiction is brutal, it is not insurmountable.

“You rarely have gone so far that you can’t come back,” she says. “And I know what it’s like to be standing in the middle of the room thinking if I had a gun I would blow my brains out.”

There is no doubt that Louise understands Jean Guy and his addiction intimately. As always I admire her ability to take that experience and make something good from it. Her key messages are all about hope and seeing experiences that seem to break us, as opportunities to “let the light in”.

Peeling back the layers of protection we wrap around us and being able to feel are perhaps essential, but frightening, preconditions to knowing our true selves. It certainly doesn’t feel safe to be truly known, laid bare with all our faults and failings, but I imagine that it comes with a certain freedom to be really understood. However, the more we are loved, the more we are understood, the more frightened we can become that we “will be seen” and found wanting.

I liked the description of a fence around a school giving kids the freedom to play because it enhanced safety. Love can be that fence if we are not afraid to come out and play.

Anna, thanks very much for passing that link on to us. I just went to it and read the article. I feel much closer to Louise Penny now. She is no longer some shadowy figure who has written these books I love so much. She has become alive and real for me now.

I felt the same way. I think Louise’s ability to be honest about herself really comes through in her themes of “being true to self” in her books.

How do I feel about Jean-Guy? I love him as you only can love one of your own. Ms. Penny is brilliant in her ability to write about addiction from the inside out. We saw this is a very outward and obvious way in A Trick of the Light. But her ability to get inside Jean-Guy’s skin as he makes his dive to the bottom…that is real brilliance. It’s measured and paced beautifully on her part, in these last three books. His slip in the monastery, his surrender to Franceur — all have the absolute ring of truth to them. She shows us how his ego is his undoing, layer by layer. And now, with nothing left, we see the desperation, the dependence, the terror, the agony of the addict.
I think I felt Jean-Guy was a potential addict or alcoholic from the first or second book — “loosely wrapped but tightly wound” is one early description. His arrogance, his ego, his amusing frustrations with the “insanity of the Anglos” …but also his great love for Armand (and Annie), his very real skill as an investigator. And there is so much in him that I really have come to love — my heart hurt at the end of The Beautiful Mystery. I really did ache for him. And for Armand. But it’s all due to Ms. Penny’s terrific skill and art. I am in awe and am so eager for the next book!

Laurie, I appreciate these comments, especially at the end where you speak about Louise Penny’s brilliance as a writer. As I have read the books the first time and now again in this ‘re-read, I get so completely caught up in the stories that I can’t at the time appreciate how she is making them so wonderful. I expect that over time, as I ‘re-read them more times, my appreciation for her skill will grow. Perhaps because of such thoughts as yours, I”ll see this in other writers as well. Right now the characters in all their variety and what happens to them is all I can think about. I have always got right into novels and become one of the characters myself, so I never think about the author.

Another indication that Jean-Guy had the potential to become an addict was that he always sniffed the felt markers before he wrote his lists in the Incident Room.

Sylvia H., that makes me so sad! Sense of smell is very important to me, and when I read that Jean-Guy sniffed the markers I thought it was because of all the good associations he had with them and with the beginning of an investigation. The way Louise describes it, it sounded like the excitement on the first day of school – the smell of a new school bag, etc.

I can see that, too – it makes sense. Perhaps it’s one of those things that can go either way.

# 5 I’ve never thought of safety versus freedom other than in the changes that have come here in the US since 9/11. Travel is not as much fun as it once was because of safety measures that are now necessary. I would like to feel safe again as I did before 9/11.
The Cuban Missile Crisis occurred during my first year of teaching. I had to tell my sixth grade students that if our area was bombed or invaded we would be taken by army transport to a place of safety. The fathers of many students were in the Army and stationed only a few miles from the school. I told them they didn’t have to be afraid because we knew the Army would keep us safe. Do you know—I honestly felt safe. I suppose ignorance is bliss.
Just thought of two safety versus freedom instances. Seat belts in cars and helmets while riding a motorcycle.

Finished the book last night….cried. I won’t spoil it for those who are still reading. I was so torn between racing through and letting the agony spin out as long as I could.

I expect we all spilled tears on this one. So much emotion pent up over the last years and growing more and more with each book… It had to come out, and for me, it certainly came in tears.

Jean-Guy… I will admit to not understanding Gamache’s affection for him in early books. But in this one, I traveled a long path from disgust, to growing affection and serious concern for him. He is now externally the mess he has always been internally. His inability to trust Gamache’s (both Armand and Annie) love for him, his absolute lack of self-love, his fear of exposing his weaknesses… all right there for anyone to see, and for some to manipulate. I cried at the wedding.

I haven’t trusted Peter’s character since “Rule Against Murder”: it showed too much lack of character. I don’t think it comes from anywhere strange, but it showed lots of self centered-ness and fear for a grown man. To give up $1M when you and your wife struggle day to day, and are chronically cold in the winter… His brother was right on that count (“If it didn’t matter, you would have taken it”) I’m curious to see who he grows into in the next book (2 weeks left!!), as I previously believed him too weak to be capable of true evil. I occasionally entertain the idea that he has Asperger’s, he is so out of touch with other people.

At this point, my fear is that this is the last book; there are no significant issues left to tie up.

Oh no, “The Long Way Home” is not the last book. Go to Louise Penny’s author page. In a recent post, she says she is completing the first draft of the next book!
Now that’s good news!

That’s an interesting thought, Bean – Asperger’s. I love the new Sherlock on British TV and available to us via Public Television, where Sherlock Holmes has Asperger’s, and it explains so much about him.

I agree about the million dollars – it’s fine that he denied himself this, but he put his wife through hardship because of his own stubbornness. And if it truly didn’t matter, he WOULD have taken it.

Now, I’m assuming Bean is a nom-de-plume, chosen because you loved the strength of character this child exhibited in A Rule Against Murder?

My first comment, though I have been following these discussions from the beginning.
#6 I think celebrity must be especially hard for people such as the Quints, because unlike performing artists, pro athletes, and politicians, they didn’t choose it.
#7 I feel a little angry at Jean-Guy at this point, but mostly just very sad and afraid for him. PTSD and addiction are conditions that aggravate the severity of each other and the pain and fear he’s experiencing is almost unbearable to read about. It’s so hard for him to let down the barriers between himself and others, but when he does, either because he’s forced to by extreme physical or emotional distress, such as when he had the flu, when he collapsed in pain by Dr. Gilbert’s cabin, or the time in one of the earlier books when started by yelling at Gamache and ended up sobbing–or when he chooses to, such as his relationship with Annie or his confiding in Ruth about the events at the factory–these wind up being good experiences for him. I guess I just hope that he sees the message the Universe is trying to send him before it’s too late.

# 7 It is had to read the description of what Jean-Guy has become. I think of the perfectly dressed man who would rather shiver in the cold than to wear a parka over his stylish clothes. Now– a filthy, smelly wreck of his former self. This very sad devolution of the individual happens in real life when drugs/alcohol take away all self-respect and dignity. I feel sorry for Jean-Guy but would like to grab him and give him a good shake. While wearing gloves, of course.

8. Ruth’s poem, “Alas,” can refer to so many people, although we now know she wrote it about Virginia Ouellet. Who do you think of in the book when you read “Who hurt you once/so far beyond repair/that you would greet each overture/with curling lip?”

I think of Ruth and of Jean-Guy and also Nicole. I guess also Francoeur. He certainly has a curling lip. 😉

7. The shattered relationship between Jean-Guy Beauvoir and Annie Gamache is illustrated in the sad scene in which they sit in cars outside each other’s homes. In Jean-Guy’s case, “Now he was hungry. Starving. And he stank. The whole car reeked. He could feel his clammy undershirt sticking to him. Molding itself there, like a second skin.” At this point in the book, how do you feel about Jean-Guy Beauvoir?

One part of me wants to shake him and to wake up to what he lost. To man up. The other part of me feels bad. My heart breaks and I want to comfort him in a motherly way.

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